The Toilet Paper Curse

It's a curse, I tell ya. You sit on the toilet, and realise that there isn't any toilet paper. What is even worse, is when there is no-one you can ask to go and get you some.

I feel like the toilets should have one of those alarms, that let you know when you're running low.

Beeeep Beeeep, you have 2 rolls remaining. Beeeeeeeep, Beeeeeeeep, Beeeeeeeep, you have one roll remaining, and then Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.. attention, you're out of toilet paper, attention, you're out of toilet paper, until you go to the shops, get some, and feed it to the toilet again. If anyone invents it, let me know, I'll buy a few of those.

The worse part is when your child goes to use the toilet, and there isn't any toilet paper. You take out the baby wipes (Which by the way NEVER ran out, maybe you should learn the trick from them, toilet paper), and you offer to wipe her bum with that, only to hear back: Mommy, I am NOT a baby!!!!

Gonna buy some tomorrow.

Gym, here I come.

I got my new gym membership today. I had one last year, but never used it, so cancelled it. Got it renewed today. Truth be told, I lack commitment to it. It's like I'll fly high for a few days, really want to change my body, and then just leave it be. I am trying hard to be more organised, to try and accomplish all the things I plan. It seems like I am actually getting there, because in the past few days I accomplished more than I did in the past 6 months, and believe me, I did more in the last 6 months than in the previous 2 years.

I am kind of exiting about Valentine's. ben reminded me todat that Valentine's is this Thursday, so I kow he must have something special for me:) I got him something nice too I know he will like it. The only thing is that a few days back he wanted to buy what i bought him already, and I think he saw the face I pulled and realised what i got him. Oh well, it's not big deal:) At least I know it's something he loves, LOL.

Sunday weigh in

This morning my scales showed 79.1 kg, or 174 lbs. This means that I am down 1.7 kg or 3.7 lbs. I'll take that, no problem.

It means that I still need to go down 9.1 kg or 20 lbs to reach my next goal.

I cut out all bread, except the Weight Watchers bread (49 cal a piece, not bad, huh?), I switched to skimmed milk, and I have a healthy breakfasts first thing in the morning. This hasn't been that bad. Once I told myself that there isn't any point in eating when I am not hungry, I am actually fine with it. I have to remember myself to eat every few hours.

The reason I do eat a lot though, is becasue I stay at home. What else is there to do? Whenever something happens - good or bad - I reach for some comfort food. Lately, though, I started feeling the urge to clean up whenever I feel bored, or just go out.

It's 9.34 in the morning, I am just going to put on the line some laundry I did, and then we'll go out for some food shopping and maybe to the playground a little. I need to break out this habbit of doing nothing.

One goal only

You know my biggest problem? I set up loads of goals, it becomes too much, I know I won't handle them all and I give up.

Today I was sitting at my computer desk writing down what I want to do and it was same old same old again, with a list of 20 things that need to be done RIGHT NOW. And I know I won’t do them.

So it's one goal for me for the next few weeks. Go down to 70 kg or 154 lbs. I won’t tell you how much I need to loose to get there. I'm just telling you that I am going to get there!

Today is my first day of exercise. I half dread starting it. I have a work out dvd that I love, that it's not too difficult or demanding, but perfect for beginners like myself. I will try and work out every morning or evening, either before the girls wake up or after they go to bed. I know that every day sounds too much, but it's not one of those work outs that leave you gasping for breath, it has a nice warm out, and a yoga style finish to it, so it's perfect to get me ready for the gym or longer/more intense work outs.

Boo Hoo

Well, I didn't run today. And I wont for the next 5 days. Don't you hate this time of month?

I've been trying to cook homemade food at home lately. We do go out here and there, but when I can, I try to cook at home. Today I made lentil soup for dinner and rice and turkey with veggies for lunch, and it was really good. I weighed myself, and although I am not much down, I can see a little improovement.

I am trying to drink gren tea in the morning. At this point, is not as much about loosing weight, as it is about establishing healthy eating patterns, and beeng more healthy all around. Once that comes naturally, then I will work on the weight loss more.

I started cutting peppers and carrots with dinner or as snack. We absolutely love them. I am working towards getting more vegetables and fruit in our diet. Ideally, I'd like to cook once a day, and have everything else fresh/raw/uncooked or leftovers. Too ambitios?

Twice in one day!

I am posting twice in one day, what did you think of?

Anyhow, I started dieting on Tuesday. Well diet is a bad word, more like I started eating proper food, limiting my king size portions, and my coke/pepsi intake. So far so good. Today I was so hungry after I had a little sandwich, and normally Ben would tell me to not be silly and go get one more, but today he just said: You are doing so good, why give up? So instead I had a coffee, and my hunger dissapeared.

Earlier on, when we picked up Vicki from nursery, we realised we were running late. There is nothing worst then seeing your child being the only one sitting on the carpet, and nothing worst then seeing her eyes follow every single person coming through the door, and realising it's not Mommy or Daddy. I was only ever late picking her up one time, and I was only next door. When I say late, I mean 5 minutes. So I ran like mad to go get her, and the short 2 minutes that I had to run left me absolutely breathless. Now, I know I am no athlete, but I didn't think it was that bad! I mean I go for long walks, I am up and doing stuff all day long, I clean the house, I go out shopping, I am not inactive. Turns out running is on a different level.

The most amazing part was that I absolutely loved the feeling. So I am going to run for 20 minutes tomorrow. In fact, since it's my blog, I am going to dedicate the next one hundred entries to my weght loss journey. You've been warned.

Ok, then.

I think I'm PMSing. I've been in a funny mood in the past few days. Bu the good news is that I am fine now.

I could sit here and write all the bitchy things that go through my head right now, but I wont.

So instead I'll resume blogging, not that I blogged all that often before:)

Long time no see

Let's see. Nothing major happened, except that Vicki is now in full time nursery, which means I don't see as much of her these days. Dani is getting more independent, and Ben and I started going out for coffee more.

I plan to make my blog private. So if you read it, make sure to let me know if you want added as friend.

I fought a great deal of jealousy feelings lately. Mostly because I am so insecure of how I look. So the plan is to exercise a little, diet a little, feel better about myself.

So that's about all.